Hey all! I hope you are doing great today on this beautiful day. :o) It's raining here, but I like it when it rains. I'm just weird like that I suppose. lol I have been pretty sad lately. I have enough things on my plate to worry about, and I didn't need that dumb nurse kick me while I'm down. How profressional is that? What a bitch she is! I just didn't need it. And of course, almost 98% of eeverythindg that I have flares ups and gets worse when I have alot of stress. I'm all flared. And misserable. My hands and feet will never get better. Ick! I haven't been able to unload my camera onto this laptop because I don't know how. I have since May! bummer. I think I just need someone to come over and help me with my computer. get it up and running and then put this one away for a well needed rest. All day yesterday my left thigh had this hudge cramp in it. Man it hurt. I tried to rub it out my self, but I couldn't. So I just had to sit with a hudge balled up muslce. I'm sure the stress had something to do with it. The fibromyalgia monster got me....aaaahhhh! Oh..the name of whats on my hands and feet is Dyshidronit. Its so gross too! Ick! And another thing thats been decided upon as well, I'm to have a care giver in the evening and through out the whole night! To stay the night! They don't want me to be alone then either. Maybe the C.O.P.D. and heart stuff happening. I am now officially Home bound. Bummer! I don't know what to think anymore. I just hope the people that keep visiting me, will continue. I so despredly in need of adult convesation. And I've been getting those free catalogs so I have something to read during the day. I want to get ahold of my sister to see if she would like the job. I don't want a stranger in here. I know I coldn't sleep at all then.All of this, and not including the nurse, has been a bit over whelming. I guess thiss is it. Have a good one! Lisa

******an update on my hands and my feet********

Ok....I can't remember what I do have I wrote it down on a sticky note and now I can't find them! LOL :) Yesterday I was able to get the medicine to put on my hands and feet. This stuff is soooo gross! Ick! The pharmasist {SP} had to order the ingrediants and then he had to mix it all up. It sticks petty bad. This stuff has tar in it! I'm just so happy that this doctor knows what shes doing. :o) Yay!

Pictures~hand~foot~and my boys!

Hello! I'm going to try and put some pictures up. The ones of my heel came out a bit blurry because all I have to use right now is my camera on my phone. :o)

SSDD

Good morning. My last post was cut short because we lost power. I think threre might have been an accident somwhere close. So,I just went to bed early again last night. Theres nothing for me to do. I just run out of things to do. Then all that is left is to just sleep. This entry is really the ending of yesterdays.On my left heal, the bed sore, I think they {doctors} found the right medicine because it's starting to heel up. Which is great. I'm still coughing that "that squeecky" tight cough. Its starting up again. Who knows, that one "feeling" could be apart of this as well. when I get in bed, that softball in a sock feeling feels like my lungs and heart are just hanging and swaying, and it hurts. My head nurse didn't come this week. I still don't know what to think of new agansey {SP} I'm going through. I wish I could go back to my old one. I can't believe that they just dropped all of their clients that have wagers, which include the that really have no one else to turn to. That upset me. This is about all for now. I really do hope that all of you are doing and feeling better. :o) Because this stuff is for the birds. :o) lol

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Good Afternoon. I do wish all of you well on the gorgiues {SP}Day. :o) My computer comitted suicide 2 days ago. I'm using my laptop for now. :o) Ok...I've said this before and am now getting told that after I got out of the hospital, I haven'tal been the same. I do my breathing treatments and listen to what I'm suppose to do. Also, still seems like I have a ways more to get better. Well, at least I think. I Got out on Easter Sunday. I should have lisntened to my doctor. If I do go back in, this time I'm not leaving until "all of me" feels right. Now, I've got this new thing going on "in" my left side. It's kind of hard to explain. Here goes: When I'm getting in my bed, I have to crawl...and each time I feel thing the same thing. I feel "something" inside, like a soft ball size in a sock or somthing that size. So, when I'm getting in bed, I feel this "thing" just

hELLO...GOOD AFTERNOON.This is sort of a "touch base" kind of entry. My hands get all cramping. And when my daughter wants to talk to me she texts me. I just end up calling, makes my hands feel better. :o) On Sunday, dh took me out to Wal-Mart. Thats the second time I've been out of this house just this year. 3 if you count the hospital. We spent 2 hours in wal-mart! And he didn't do no growling either. :p I had my list and it took me all that time to find them. I guess you could say it was sort of like a treasure hunt. LOL Oh about my doctors appointment last Friday...I wanted my home health aide to go with me, because it's getting harder for me to talk anymore, she was my voise. She also has a better vocabulary then I do too! LOL I want to make thid short...The burns are 2nd degree burns, my left heal doesn't look good at all, pretty much have to look at it all the time to check on it, not good at all. I'd be very surpised if it does heal. My hands are getting so much worse. This time around it's my right hand thats the worse one. A big OUCHIE! The doctor just about fainted when she seen all of the things that I was trying to discribe to her on the phone so I could get in to see her sooner. And the main thing that made sit down while having her nervoise breakdown, was that I take insulin shots! Now see, I assumed she knew all of this and had my records from the hospital. That appointment went very good. I got all of my scripts, and maybe she'll understand that I'm not messing around when I tell her about something wrong. My son come in today. :o) He had his work cloths to wash and he wanted to take a shower as well. I Ordered take out and it was so nice to visit with him. :o) I really need to go. hands are killing me. gggrrr. Giving hugs to all of you! And My ciggs. are on the back porch. :o) Gods Blessings to all! ~~And this is what makes me happy! Just to dance.

~Careful

Good evening/morning to you all. I hope everyone and their families are doind doing well. :o) I had all of this stuff I wanted to write about, then I forgot all of it! gggrrr. Oh well, it might come back to me. Did you even know that my mom still doesn't know what all has happened to me and why I was in the hospital. I just really need to talk about it. /she doesn't even know I had a tia stroke, pnuemonia, bronchitis and black patches filled both lungs. I lost 10 pounds though!! Yay! :o) How? I have no idea! lol My lungs are fillind up again. It also looks as though as my body is swelloning again.

Update from hospital

This is Lisa's daughter Nena using her laptop from the hospital. She had her lung biopsy this morning. So far, doctor hasn't came back with any results. The reason she had to get a lung biopsy is because they found black patches on her lungs. She has been breathing so much better now. She also hasn't had a cigarette since Thursday when she got admitted. YAY! She said she is DONE SMOKING!! :) Kudos for her! She is so thankful for all of your concerns and prayers. She has been using a nebulizer & has breathing treatments every 4 hours/day. Thanks to those treatments, mom is sounding & feeling A LOT better. She is not expecting any cards or gifts. All she wants is all of your prayers. There was definitely an angel watching over her on Thursday. She said once she pressed her button to get the squad to take her to the hospital, they said there was already laterone on their way. That is fate right there! My turn to thank you. :o) I've been in this hospital since Thursday without my computer! I was having withdraws. lol. I was and am having problms typing as well. I do feel so blessed to have my life! I would hhave been died within two weeks. They're really taking great care of me and it takes alot for me to say that about this hospital, they've kept me! :o) I'm going to have to write more at another .

Wine and Water To my friend who enjoys a glass of wine...and those who don't. As Ben Franklin said: In wine there is wisdom, in beer there is freedom, in water there is bacteria. In a number of carefully controlled trials, scientists have demonstrated that if we drink 1 liter of water each day, at the end of the year we would have absorbed more than 1 kilo of Escherichia coli, (E. coli) - bacteria found in feces. In other words, we are consuming 1 kilo of poop. However, we do NOT run that risk when drinking wine & beer (or tequila, rum, whisky or other liquor), because alcohol has to go through a purification process of boiling, filtering and/or fermenting. Remember: Water = Poop, Wine = Health. Therefore, it's better to drink wine and talk stupid, than to drink water and be full of shit. There is no need to thank me for this valuable information: I'm doing it as a public service.

Good evening. I do pray that everyone is doing and and feeling well tonight. Yesterday was a better day. I sure can't have another week like this past one, thats for sure. My son-in-law got layed off for awhile...he doesn' know for how long yet. They of course know they can come here to live until they can be back on my feet. I hate to see all of these people not working, and no money coming in. :o( It was just so nice to have my daughter and my grandsons here. I kind of got used to it. :o) All 3 of them were coming here because they can't be at home at night. They have post truamtic stress. Even the baby at 10 months old. ;( And her husband works 3rd shift. So they come here for the night. I like it. I wish I could take the bad things out of their minds and put in mine. I don't like seeing them like this. I still haven't seen or heard from my son. :o( To me, that just proves the guilt. If he "didn't do it, he would have stayed here and fought with me about it all. He's acting very different, I've never seen him act this way. I'll have to get a picture of my hair. The left side is greying fast. A few days ago, I got more just over night! I'm so worried about my son. I'm going to call him and talk to him. I Wish he'd be able to come over because I don't want to talk to him over the phone with this "situation.' Bear with me please, my memory isn't all that good, so if I repeat something, let me know in the comments section. I would really appreciate that. Ok...Dh and I were in the living room watching a movie. I have a large oxygen tank right next to my chair. I only remember from a certain part of the movie, and then Jim yelling at me to wake up! I guess I must have went unconscious. He put my chair all the way back which is flat like a bed. he got the oxygen and put that on me. Then he was holding me and doing the yelling! He told me that my breathing didn't sound good! Ok...so he can hear it from across the room...dam! He also said he could tell by watching my gown as well. So, he was getting ready to call the Medics to take me to the ER. And thats when I "woke" up. Now thats how I feel during the day. This time I had a witness. I have an appointment on Friday to see my doctor. Dh wants to go with me. He also doesn't want me driving either. Since these things just happens at any time. I asked if he could write down what happened. Which that whil help the doctor,but me as well. I'm going to start "something" to get all of this recorded. I just don't want to go to my doctors and then she wants me to take tests. I'm just too weak and too tired. May God bless everyone of you! Lisa