Pictures~hand~foot~and my boys!

Hello! I'm going to try and put some pictures up. The ones of my heel came out a bit blurry because all I have to use right now is my camera on my phone. :o)

~Starting to worry about my foot...

Good Morning! Hoping that you are all feeling great today! :o) It really looks like it could just open up and rain today. Just hope if it does, that it isn't thunder storms. When it lightenings, it actually goes through me. No kidding. My fingertips have small redish "holes" {for lack of a better word}. I'm just an "all around odd" odd" person! LOL I think I'm going to try and look at my computer today. I hope with the recovey discs I have for it will work. If not, well then it will end up in computer heaven because I don't have the money to get it fixed. From the time before I was diagnosed with type 2 diabeties, on my left heel, has been like "raw meat." I've been putting the medicine on it like the Doctor said to do, and some of it still has black skin, and OMG sore! Last night when I was putting the medicine on, I noticed that I had a "crack" at the very back on my heel and inside was black. Bummer. I do know that it is bad inside first then works its way out to the surface, and then usually thats when you see it. Bummer. So....no matter how much I do for it, and others as well, I know deep down what will happen. But ya' know, if something does happen to it, I'm already prepaired for it. Right now in my life, I don't sweat the small stuff anymore. I have a mother that the last I seen her when I was in the hospital and she came in pissed at me for "not calling" her! I called all of the phone numbers I had for the woman...Geesh! And now, I don't see her because she "doesn't have the time" for me. LOL I mean...OMG...whats wrong with this lady!? LOL I've always been the "peace keeper" in the family, but I can't do that anymore, I need to look out for me for a change, not raise my mom and my youngest sister. Good grief. So......right now in my life, that is small potatoes. My daughter is just in aww of how my mother has treated her kids. She has two and another on the way! YAY! I can't help that, everytime I talk about the new arrival I just have to say that because of my excitment! :o) As we all know, YEP, I'm going to spoil this one too! lol :o) I just don't think I can have enough grandbabys. I'm addicted! lol :o) This little story is just too funny too me :) Andrew is now 1 and a few months now. LOL You know when your kids are little and you say: I hope you have kids that act just like you! Well, it really happened! LOL Andrew is now acting just like my daughter did! I'm not kidding when I say shes saying word for word to what it was that she did! When we were on te phone talking and she was tellng me something that he had done....and I finsed her sentance! ROFL! I think its funny..but if he gets to be too onry for her, I'll have to help her out in some way. She needs to take care of herself as well for the new one! Andrew was being so bad last week that Kayden even was shocked and told him that he was going to get in trouble! He was trying to save his brothers butt! That was nice of him but he didn't heed his warnings because he got into trouble. :o) Oh.....I just have to mention this.....I've gotten on this really cool program that pays for almost everything I need medically! I want to share it with all of you as well. I was called just last week and asked what I could use delivered to me. Well, I told her everything, because now I'm 97% home bound. Bummer. I just started out with diabetic and wound supplies. Within 2 days, it all started to come! I'm going to need a cabinate or something to store all of what I just got in, plus more is on its way. Whew! The company is called Home Care Delivered, Inc. Website: www.homecaredelivered.com Very nice people and very undestanding as well. I do need to go now. Remmber to laugh!

Hello all...hoping that you're feeling great today! :o) It's very beautiful here. Dh got the baby pool out and the slip and slide pretty much most of the water fun for my grandsons. It has been way too hot and humid for me.As soon as I get to the back door, I'm already out of breath! What it feels like is a "smothering" feeling. Ijust hand over the camcorder to someone that'll take it for me. Andrew wasn't in the movies, he was naping.When I can get another tape, then I'll get him! lol I've also been having the same troublams withmy lungs like I was when I was admitted to the hospital. But this time it's my left lung thats giving me a fit. bummer! So that kind of bothers me alot! Remember when I was in the hospital the last time, my doctor wouldn't even touch that lung to clear it out! Because it could kill me. I've been doing my breathing treaments and my daughter was here last night. She said, "Doesn't that put moore moisture in your lungs?" Yes, she's right and I'm going tp stop doing the nebulizer. I wasn't thinking about what that was for. Just too much on my mind I suppose. Dh took me to the ER last week. He was worried about me. I already knew that I had plerisy in my left lung. the ex-en I rayes showed that I had it in both ! :o( I've had {SP} plerisy before. I would get it all the time when I was younger. And boy it hurts so bad in my left lung. I also had another tia bummer#2. I can't even count how many times not to get me all upset and hurt my feelings. And I'm the one thats paying the price for it. The moor of those I whave, the closer a true stroke will happen! gggrrrr! And I don't want to have one of those. not yet. NOT EVER! Well, I've finally got it down on whitch pain is what now. Phew....Kind of took awhile, but I've done it. :o) I'm home bound. All I'm abole to do is to cash my check, with dh's help, go to my with my home health aides help, and then to CVS to fill my scripts, with dh or home health aide. And I'm not driving. So,my bed is where I live. Ick! I have to be in there because of bairconditioner. I havee it set on 60.Out heres temp is set on 71. Well, my son and his girlfriend have broken up. After almost 6 years together, and being i butngaged as well. Hes doing ok right now. She most have riped him to shreds! his self asteem has always been low,but OMG...when he showed up here...I just hugged him and didn't want to let go of him. Hes alot better, but no one knows what happened, he hasn't told anyone. I'w.d like to know because I'm a nosey mom, but also so maybe I can give him some help. He really needs our prayers right now. He's been keeping himself busy by helping around the house for dh. I did ask him for a favor for me...he made this room into a sitting room! YAY! So now when I have company, so now we can sit in here.:o) I need to end, i'm starting to get over heated. God bless you! Lisa

Anyone want to change bodies? :o)

Geesh, its been a time since my last post! Oh, no, it's not at all because I've been busy...LOL {i wish} I'm still using my laptop. I know now how to fix my}computer. {well, 99.9%} sure. :o) For the past weeks now, I've been taking care of my feet. Right foot has the burn and is looking great by the way! Left foot the horrid bedsore. Yikes that really hurts. When I get it all clean and with the cream on it, it doesn't yell at me so much. :p I also have to keep it to were the heel is not resting on anything. I have a blanket that I have rolled up for it to lay on that to have it dangle. It's not to rest on anything. I freaked when I seen the black skin! :o( We all know what that is. Ick! My burn is almost gone now. YAY! It's really icthing pretty bad,and I can't scratch it! lol I do have some anti- itch cream that I put around the bandage. I had a doctors appointment yesterday. My home health aide took me. She remembers the important things that I always forget. But the funny thing, I've been sick all week with a fever of 101.8. ....and we both said the things we had on paper, But were to get my 5 scripts and came home. Then I remembered! LOL It wasn't on my list...so I didnt mention it! LOL Geez! I need to end this. Thanks for droping by! i

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Good morning. My last post was cut short because we lost power. I think threre might have been an accident somwhere close. So,I just went to bed early again last night. Theres nothing for me to do. I just run out of things to do. Then all that is left is to just sleep. This entry is really the ending of yesterdays.On my left heal, the bed sore, I think they {doctors} found the right medicine because it's starting to heel up. Which is great. I'm still coughing that "that squeecky" tight cough. Its starting up again. Who knows, that one "feeling" could be apart of this as well. when I get in bed, that softball in a sock feeling feels like my lungs and heart are just hanging and swaying, and it hurts. My head nurse didn't come this week. I still don't know what to think of new agansey {SP} I'm going through. I wish I could go back to my old one. I can't believe that they just dropped all of their clients that have wagers, which include the that really have no one else to turn to. That upset me. This is about all for now. I really do hope that all of you are doing and feeling better. :o) Because this stuff is for the birds. :o) lol

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Good Afternoon. I do wish all of you well on the gorgiues {SP}Day. :o) My computer comitted suicide 2 days ago. I'm using my laptop for now. :o) Ok...I've said this before and am now getting told that after I got out of the hospital, I haven'tal been the same. I do my breathing treatments and listen to what I'm suppose to do. Also, still seems like I have a ways more to get better. Well, at least I think. I Got out on Easter Sunday. I should have lisntened to my doctor. If I do go back in, this time I'm not leaving until "all of me" feels right. Now, I've got this new thing going on "in" my left side. It's kind of hard to explain. Here goes: When I'm getting in my bed, I have to crawl...and each time I feel thing the same thing. I feel "something" inside, like a soft ball size in a sock or somthing that size. So, when I'm getting in bed, I feel this "thing" just

~Releasing a bit.

I can't believe how long it's been since I last posted an entry. :o) Well here I am now and hoping that you all are doing and feeling great today! :o) I've been back and forth to the stupid ER and my pulminary doctor. There are a lot of changes thats going to happen in my life from now on. They didn't find any cancer in my right lung, which is great! Whew! But, the doctor "can't" check my left lung because of the shape that it is in. My heart leaning on my left lung and my lung drooping from this. It's been abit harder to breath lately as well. My pulminary doctor gave me nitroglycerin pills. For him to do something like that, is serious. He doesn't give me anything unless he really feels it's the last thing to be done to help. Which is good and scary at the same time to me. Only because I know how he does thing. I do trust him alot. On my left foot, I have a bed sore that is getting bad a bit at a time. It's now to the point of it just bleeding in the area that really hurts me. I'm suppose to bed in bed with my foot up to help it for now until I see my gp. My hands broke out again. lol Good Grief...Just sitting here writing this is nothing but a repeat! lol aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! :p Yes, I do laugh all the time, and I do still have my down days as well. I still have my ms and fibro to manage too. My body is getting way too many medical things, and I'm wondering how much more. :o) Geesh! Well....I have that new agency I went with, and not really sure if I like them or not. It's just going to take awhile to get used to. I also have TIA strokes. He told me abit about them, but I still need to look up more information on this. My diabeties has been going up and down this whole time since I've been home frome the hospital. I give myself a shot,and things are better. I never thought that I could do that. I don't even feel them. :o) My legs are also starting to swell up. That can't happen. Because my lungs and heart will be affected. Scary. Ok.......enough of my pissing and moanig. I want you all to just laugh and don't let the little things bother you. Lifes too short. I do care and love all of my readers. :o) God bless all of you.

Just a few words. I'm still weak and I don't get on the computer very often at all. Not like me. I've been busy getting used to this new agancy that I'm going with. They're from the hospital. I know, that doesn't make it any better either. :o) I'm just telling myslef that. lol :o) Somebody does come everyday. lol..it's to the point to where I had no idea who was who and for what! So I asked if they could please write their names down and what day they're here. I'm so grateful for having them come here to my own home. I'm just having problems with my hips and legs. This morning when I woke up, my left side of my face was numb! I looked in the mirror to see if their were any damage. I was really hoping it was a spider bite, or somthing like that. My home health aide comes tomorror. Yay! :o) We have fun together. It's dh's cousin. She comes on Tuesdays and on Thursdays. I got off track again....I'm trying to catch myself doing that. :o) My nurse this morning took alook at me and said to make a doctors appoinment. But don't worry about now. And to go get and bed and rest! Oh Sure...I can rest?! I don't think so. lol I know what I need...I don't need to be in that stupid bed all the time. What I need is to see my daughter and my babies! :o) They can heal me. lol My son has been coming to town everyday this week and of course he cheers me up too. lol The first night that he came over, I was up watching t.v. with my lights off. All of the sudden, my door s l o w l y crept open and it was him! Whew! LOL He scared the crap out of me! LOL I told him to come on in so he could get cooled down. It's so good to see him doing so much better now too. So at nights, I'll listen for him. :o) He's come all but one. He has asthma and I worry about him when it gets humid and hard to breath. He was a baby when he was diagnosd. Here lately I've been staying up watching those old movies again on TCM. Even the silent ones. Those are my favorites because they had to really make their face and body so believable to get it across to the audiance. Now thats acting. :o) I suppose I'm done talking. S0.....thats, thats then! :o)

~Careful

Good evening/morning to you all. I hope everyone and their families are doind doing well. :o) I had all of this stuff I wanted to write about, then I forgot all of it! gggrrr. Oh well, it might come back to me. Did you even know that my mom still doesn't know what all has happened to me and why I was in the hospital. I just really need to talk about it. /she doesn't even know I had a tia stroke, pnuemonia, bronchitis and black patches filled both lungs. I lost 10 pounds though!! Yay! :o) How? I have no idea! lol My lungs are fillind up again. It also looks as though as my body is swelloning again.