Tuesday, February 10, 2009


Photobucket Firstly, I only send this blog out because I'm told that "they" havent gotten it when I post an enrty. I don't know whats wrong with this blog stuff. It makes me feel out of the equation.....like I'm really not apart of the blogging land! That hurts. When I read and visit other blogs, I feel stagnent and everyone else has moved on...but in reallty, so have I. Secondly, I do pray that eveyone is feeling and doing alright today. It says its 53 degrees out! Yay! My daughter is still stranded down south where her husbands family lives. I miss them....dh and I don't go without seeing them for this long. I didn't have a very good day yesterday. I cut my right arm several times to help me feel better. At that time, it did. I'd like to know when I'm going to hit rock bottom? Or have I already and just haven't noticed? I feel as if I'm falling...like you do when your sleeping and it makes you jump. done for now.


Heather said...

Hi Lisa, just stopping by to say hello and wish you a good day today.
xoxo, Heather

Sugar said...

i didn't get this alert on my reader or dashboard...grrr.
going to take myself off as a follower, then add back & see if that helps...altho i've done that twice before. maybe 3rd times the charm? :)

Maria-K. said...

Hi Lisa,
Yes, I can't follow you as I do follow other blogs. Don't know why not? I understand your frustration. Wish I could help you in some way. But, have no clue how.
Wishing you a good day. Hope your dh comes back soon. Hugs, Maria

AGirlNexDoorCreation said...

I haven't gone anywhere...I have not been on the puter much..feel free to send me your updates as you make them...I would only delete if I have been or if my mail box is over flowing...Keeping you in my prayers! Take care of yourself,TerryAnn

Merry'sthoughtshopesdreamsandshemes said...

Hi Lisa! I have no problem following your blog. I do go back through a link you sent me, though.

Lisa, Please take care of yourself. Love yourself. Many of your readers do care about you. Don't you feel that?

What can we do to show you that we care about you? If I am missing doing something you need, tell me what you need.

I worry about your physical problems, and you are in my prayers always. I also don't like to hear that are cutting. That's self-destructive and you are a smart and talented young lady. None of us want you feeling bad.

Keep on plugging but remember you are never alone. God is with you and those that matter who care about you are always here for you.

Kathy said...

I've just added myself as a follower Lisa. I've lost touch with a number of folks, but I find if I keep poking around blogger, I bump into someone every week!

Sorry things are so tough for you right now ... hang in ... and know you have friends here.

jean said...

Lisa maybe the children will be back soon and I hope you will get to feeling better.Take care, jean

jean said...

Lisa when I try leaving a comment it want take, I will try again. Maybe the children will be back soon and you will get to feeling better. Take care, jean

Amanda said...

((((((((((LISA))))))))))))))))I dont get your alerts,maybe I will do what Sugar does,take me off and add me back,see if that helps.I hope you feel better.Just,know,I am here ofr you.

Chrissie said...

Oh Lisa I'm sorry to hear that you feel helpless. It is like being in a whirlwind.
Sorry I haven't been by in awhile. I hardly get on to read and only write in my journal to keep track for me. I don't even send out emails anymore when I write an entry. That is how lazy I have gotten. To me this place is not the same.
Mostly I spend time on Facebook where I can check on people at one time, but don't feel comfortable writing anything really personal on there for all to see.
I will have to read back and see where you daughter is. I know you miss those babies big time.
Big hugs to you and things will get better soon.
Take care, Chrissie

AutumnRose said...

I miss the old aol journals where I was emailed new posts. I was reading through your journal & you certainly have every right to complain. Sometimes I don't know which is worse, physical pain, emotional pain or spiritual pain. Keeping you in my prayers. Karen

Gerry said...

Lisa, I finally figured out what you were talking about in this entry. I have your journal on my sidebar in my blog list, and it generally does not list your latest entry as the others do. I haven't checked inside which I am going to do to see if it shows there. Why don't you contact the blogspot staff and tell them people say your latest entry is not posting, but I check your blog periodically now that I know it is not posting, so I always get your latest entries, if a day or so later. I never go very long without checking on you, and i am sure others do the same. I know it is hard not to feel despair in such a down situation, but I hope that you can somehow get feeling better enough not to cut. Try to think of all the spirits surrounding you here as well as beyond. You have suffered so much. I feel you are surrounded by angels. Just reach out your hand to them and talk to them, ask them to comfort you, to help you keep from hurting yourself. Lisa, you know the spirits are real. I listen every night for a little while to the George Noory show (his link is on my blog list) who is so at home with everyone's spiritual experiences. He comforts so many and they tell him that in all the calls he takes. You can also e-mail him. He encourages people to send him their e-mails. You don't realize how strong your spirit is, your wings are beng forged in the fires of your suffering. Don't worry, Lisa, God loves you, I know he does and he salutes your courage. You are so brave and dont ever stop thinking that this is not known. Gerry