Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts

Monday, January 4, 2010

~To Live

Good evening. Wow, it's been soooo long since I've written in this! Not that I've wanted it to be this way! :o) I didn't realize just how 'busy/ill' I've been.

Yes, I had my surgery. I guess I had two for one! lol :o) Instead of having just the 3 holes/slits, I woke up to 5! :o) Before surgery I did tell him to take care of anything else he might find in there! :o) So he did! lol He told me that he took out my stones and gulbladder, that he had seen that I had also a pretty bad case of adhesions in there from a previouse surgery. Wow! That's been around 27 years ago! Those are painful as well! Whew! I thanked him. That as well could have contributed to alot of my pain in that regin. Of course, I do have pictures of all of my 'punctures.' I just have to upload them onto the the computer. :o) I wonder if I can just hook up the camera and get them like that? I'm going to try this! :o) Hold on......Not this time, my mind is just way too 'mushy' still to think that hard! lol :o)

There is 17 more days left until my daughter has her baby! YAY! She's still doing great! The baby has dropped and she's hudge! lol Too cute! I have pictures of her too, just still on the camera. :o)

{-exhaling-} Since I've been really stuck in my bed sick and/or healing, I've nothing to do except to think. Look at the 4 walls and think. when able to get able to get up and walk around the house, then I am able to look at those walls as well too. Looking out my windows makes my walking around the house so much better. Yay! I mean, this is my life. I'm not at all complaining. I'm trying to explain how I am and why. I honestly mean Yay when I say that when I am able to look out a window. :o) In my bedroom I have an airconditioner in my window. I guess during the day I could pull the blinds up. {duh} I've made this room into my sitting room now and I just love it! So if and when I get company, I have a place to sit and talk. :o) So far it's been my aide, my nurse and I. :o) My life has changed! And you know, I'm not going to change it! :o) I like it and I've excepted that I can't go back to the way it was a few years ago. :o) And slowly but surely, others are finally realizing this! :o) Realizing my changes over the past few years, getting upset at me telling me that I've changed, well yes I have. :o) What happens if all of the sudden someone goes fromm walking with 2 legs and then the next day they are in a wheel chair, But are the same person just in a wheel chair? The difference with me is I had to get used to these walls. :o) Now I have. :o) I'm still me though. I'm still me. :o)

My computer has finally been fixed! YAAY! :o) I'm not using it yet because I'm going to put it in my bedroom. This one is going to stay out here for everyone else to use. I really want to keep mine in good condition and if anything ever happens to it again, then I'll know I'm the one that did it. Instead of trying to figure out where everyone went and that long and drug out stuff.

Well, I do need to go. Fingers are hurting. Hope that all are alright and doing well. :o) God bless you all! :o)

Lisa

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Good Afternoon all! Hoping that everyone is doing/feeling great! :o) I've been wanting to write alot sooner but once again my life has taken another turn. Since last winter, I've had this very hard 'band' located in my upper stomach area. If I were to lay on my stomach, I would 'teeter.' I knew this wasn't right and did let my nurse practitioner know about this. I would show her and had her push on it to see why it was like this. She told me that, "I can't expect to have the body of a 20 year old at my age and that I was going through menopuase!" Not true! I went through that when I was 23 and I don't care what I look like, I just knew that something was very wrong. I had a lump and some pain. But since 'she' couldn't 'feel' it, then that was her diagnosis! I never liked her because I felt I wasn't getting the proper care. I finally have been able to change doctors. This new doctor comes to my home. Boy do I like that. :o) There have been alot more dealings with her that I'm not going to talk about, but has taken around 3 months! gggrrr! My new doctor came and gave me a good check and noticed right away that my stomach wasn't right. I have just been starting to feel some light pain. {remember certain places of my body is numb from the MS} This hardness had also started my upper body to grow/go to the left! I look deformed! I also had an appointment to see my sleep/pulminary doctor 3 weeks ago. He noticed it as well. He ordered an ultra sound. Well, it showed that my gullbladder was full of very large stones! Everyone was asking me if I had ever had pain prior to this. No. The doctors say that this is at the last point for it to be this way...{for lack of a better term}. Anyway, when the new doctor was here on Tuesday, he right away pushed right on my pains. I about come out of my chair! LOL Yep, I felt pain then! :o) He asked if I had a phone book handy, which I did, and I gave it to him. He right away called the surgens office here in town. He told them that it has to all come out asap! The appointment was for December 1st, but it was later changed to the very same day to 3:30! I went in and the surgen wanted one more test to know what all else has/or if been damaged in there. So...I had to drink that barrium crap ~ick~ and go in yesturday for a ct scan. So now I'm waiting until Monday to see when I get admited for surgery. I really like this new docotor, he's right on top of things! :o) I've been also carrying a fever as well, but I'm not sure if it goes with that or the h1n1 shot I was able to get 2 weeks ago. My nures says its from my gullbladder. She's always been right on everything else, so I suppose I'll listen to her. LOL I hope that everyone had a great Thanksgiving! :o) I sure did! :o) My sister and mom came over as well as my daughter and her cute little family. :o) I'm so very thankful for having them! I ate a bit, then did nothing but watch my grandsons at 'work!" LOL I was laughing so hard! It was great! And soon I'll have another grandbaby! :o) Just can't wait! This one will be her last one I think. Now I have to wait on my son to get married and have children! :o) This is something that I find very humbling; Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and shun evil. This will bring health to your body and nourisment to your bones. Proverbs 3:7-8 {NIV} So very true! :o) I'm going for now. In hopes that you all will be fine and God bless you! Lisa