~The first thing I've actually written since the move...

Hello to everyone. I've been hiding behind jokes that I'd post. I have know idea on how to put stuff on this blog. what I do have was a shock for me that I even did it! LOL I haven't felt well. Geesh...I know, I know....is that all I talk about! :o) This is just my life. :o) Whats shocked me is I haven't even felt like being on the computer! So now you can see how bad I felt! :o) My left ear has been hurting for a few months bow. Each time I went to my gp, see would say that both ears looked nice and cleaned. Again, as we all know...she wouldn't listen to me as I pleaded my case. That went on for a few months! I again went to see her again on Friday. My daughter took me. I was having alot of problems with my left ear. It was hurting and I can't hear out of it. This time when I told her about my ear she was going to do her great blow off on me. Not this time! After she checked both ears she was on it! She gave me some ear drops for my left ear. I told dh that theres enough that we can use for my right ear as well. My right ear is slowly but surely getting there. My left ear is a whole different story. I honesty feel that it's damaged. I can't hear out of it anymore! And she doesn't want to see me again until January! She derserves a medal! On top of all of that, my mom came over the day after yesterday. I've been trying to get ahold of her to see where see how far she was in becoming my day time care taker. I finally got ahold of my sister and had her tell mom to call me. She did and thats why she came over. Taking in alot of deep breaths; I cry when I talk about this. Ok, she came over to tell me that she has 6 weeks left to go on her test. I was excited! She told me that " It just wasn't worth the time and effort anymore." So...Ask me how that made me feel. Now I don't know who to call or anything. I did my best on not to cry, but after she said this to me, out it came. She wasn't comforting, or anything like that for me. Because of being so upset, my body was cramping up. I didn't need that happening. And of all people in my life, she would be one, NOT to get me in a way like that. I feel like I'm a few inches high, and partually deaf. She also told me that she's not going to take me to my doctors appointments anymore. We pay her to take me. So...ther goes that. I HATE PROMISES!!! I don't ever want to hear that you promise! None of them have gone through. I'm going to go lay down now. Lisa