Hello all...hoping that you're feeling great today! :o) It's very beautiful here. Dh got the baby pool out and the slip and slide pretty much most of the water fun for my grandsons. It has been way too hot and humid for me.As soon as I get to the back door, I'm already out of breath! What it feels like is a "smothering" feeling. Ijust hand over the camcorder to someone that'll take it for me. Andrew wasn't in the movies, he was naping.When I can get another tape, then I'll get him! lol I've also been having the same troublams withmy lungs like I was when I was admitted to the hospital. But this time it's my left lung thats giving me a fit. bummer! So that kind of bothers me alot! Remember when I was in the hospital the last time, my doctor wouldn't even touch that lung to clear it out! Because it could kill me. I've been doing my breathing treaments and my daughter was here last night. She said, "Doesn't that put moore moisture in your lungs?" Yes, she's right and I'm going tp stop doing the nebulizer. I wasn't thinking about what that was for. Just too much on my mind I suppose. Dh took me to the ER last week. He was worried about me. I already knew that I had plerisy in my left lung. the ex-en I rayes showed that I had it in both ! :o( I've had {SP} plerisy before. I would get it all the time when I was younger. And boy it hurts so bad in my left lung. I also had another tia bummer#2. I can't even count how many times not to get me all upset and hurt my feelings. And I'm the one thats paying the price for it. The moor of those I whave, the closer a true stroke will happen! gggrrrr! And I don't want to have one of those. not yet. NOT EVER! Well, I've finally got it down on whitch pain is what now. Phew....Kind of took awhile, but I've done it. :o) I'm home bound. All I'm abole to do is to cash my check, with dh's help, go to my with my home health aides help, and then to CVS to fill my scripts, with dh or home health aide. And I'm not driving. So,my bed is where I live. Ick! I have to be in there because of bairconditioner. I havee it set on 60.Out heres temp is set on 71. Well, my son and his girlfriend have broken up. After almost 6 years together, and being i butngaged as well. Hes doing ok right now. She most have riped him to shreds! his self asteem has always been low,but OMG...when he showed up here...I just hugged him and didn't want to let go of him. Hes alot better, but no one knows what happened, he hasn't told anyone. I'w.d like to know because I'm a nosey mom, but also so maybe I can give him some help. He really needs our prayers right now. He's been keeping himself busy by helping around the house for dh. I did ask him for a favor for me...he made this room into a sitting room! YAY! So now when I have company, so now we can sit in here.:o) I need to end, i'm starting to get over heated. God bless you! Lisa

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Good morning. My last post was cut short because we lost power. I think threre might have been an accident somwhere close. So,I just went to bed early again last night. Theres nothing for me to do. I just run out of things to do. Then all that is left is to just sleep. This entry is really the ending of yesterdays.On my left heal, the bed sore, I think they {doctors} found the right medicine because it's starting to heel up. Which is great. I'm still coughing that "that squeecky" tight cough. Its starting up again. Who knows, that one "feeling" could be apart of this as well. when I get in bed, that softball in a sock feeling feels like my lungs and heart are just hanging and swaying, and it hurts. My head nurse didn't come this week. I still don't know what to think of new agansey {SP} I'm going through. I wish I could go back to my old one. I can't believe that they just dropped all of their clients that have wagers, which include the that really have no one else to turn to. That upset me. This is about all for now. I really do hope that all of you are doing and feeling better. :o) Because this stuff is for the birds. :o) lol

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Good Afternoon. I do wish all of you well on the gorgiues {SP}Day. :o) My computer comitted suicide 2 days ago. I'm using my laptop for now. :o) Ok...I've said this before and am now getting told that after I got out of the hospital, I haven'tal been the same. I do my breathing treatments and listen to what I'm suppose to do. Also, still seems like I have a ways more to get better. Well, at least I think. I Got out on Easter Sunday. I should have lisntened to my doctor. If I do go back in, this time I'm not leaving until "all of me" feels right. Now, I've got this new thing going on "in" my left side. It's kind of hard to explain. Here goes: When I'm getting in my bed, I have to crawl...and each time I feel thing the same thing. I feel "something" inside, like a soft ball size in a sock or somthing that size. So, when I'm getting in bed, I feel this "thing" just

hELLO...GOOD AFTERNOON.This is sort of a "touch base" kind of entry. My hands get all cramping. And when my daughter wants to talk to me she texts me. I just end up calling, makes my hands feel better. :o) On Sunday, dh took me out to Wal-Mart. Thats the second time I've been out of this house just this year. 3 if you count the hospital. We spent 2 hours in wal-mart! And he didn't do no growling either. :p I had my list and it took me all that time to find them. I guess you could say it was sort of like a treasure hunt. LOL Oh about my doctors appointment last Friday...I wanted my home health aide to go with me, because it's getting harder for me to talk anymore, she was my voise. She also has a better vocabulary then I do too! LOL I want to make thid short...The burns are 2nd degree burns, my left heal doesn't look good at all, pretty much have to look at it all the time to check on it, not good at all. I'd be very surpised if it does heal. My hands are getting so much worse. This time around it's my right hand thats the worse one. A big OUCHIE! The doctor just about fainted when she seen all of the things that I was trying to discribe to her on the phone so I could get in to see her sooner. And the main thing that made sit down while having her nervoise breakdown, was that I take insulin shots! Now see, I assumed she knew all of this and had my records from the hospital. That appointment went very good. I got all of my scripts, and maybe she'll understand that I'm not messing around when I tell her about something wrong. My son come in today. :o) He had his work cloths to wash and he wanted to take a shower as well. I Ordered take out and it was so nice to visit with him. :o) I really need to go. hands are killing me. gggrrr. Giving hugs to all of you! And My ciggs. are on the back porch. :o) Gods Blessings to all! ~~And this is what makes me happy! Just to dance.

~Releasing a bit.

I can't believe how long it's been since I last posted an entry. :o) Well here I am now and hoping that you all are doing and feeling great today! :o) I've been back and forth to the stupid ER and my pulminary doctor. There are a lot of changes thats going to happen in my life from now on. They didn't find any cancer in my right lung, which is great! Whew! But, the doctor "can't" check my left lung because of the shape that it is in. My heart leaning on my left lung and my lung drooping from this. It's been abit harder to breath lately as well. My pulminary doctor gave me nitroglycerin pills. For him to do something like that, is serious. He doesn't give me anything unless he really feels it's the last thing to be done to help. Which is good and scary at the same time to me. Only because I know how he does thing. I do trust him alot. On my left foot, I have a bed sore that is getting bad a bit at a time. It's now to the point of it just bleeding in the area that really hurts me. I'm suppose to bed in bed with my foot up to help it for now until I see my gp. My hands broke out again. lol Good Grief...Just sitting here writing this is nothing but a repeat! lol aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! :p Yes, I do laugh all the time, and I do still have my down days as well. I still have my ms and fibro to manage too. My body is getting way too many medical things, and I'm wondering how much more. :o) Geesh! Well....I have that new agency I went with, and not really sure if I like them or not. It's just going to take awhile to get used to. I also have TIA strokes. He told me abit about them, but I still need to look up more information on this. My diabeties has been going up and down this whole time since I've been home frome the hospital. I give myself a shot,and things are better. I never thought that I could do that. I don't even feel them. :o) My legs are also starting to swell up. That can't happen. Because my lungs and heart will be affected. Scary. Ok.......enough of my pissing and moanig. I want you all to just laugh and don't let the little things bother you. Lifes too short. I do care and love all of my readers. :o) God bless all of you.

Just a few words. I'm still weak and I don't get on the computer very often at all. Not like me. I've been busy getting used to this new agancy that I'm going with. They're from the hospital. I know, that doesn't make it any better either. :o) I'm just telling myslef that. lol :o) Somebody does come everyday. lol..it's to the point to where I had no idea who was who and for what! So I asked if they could please write their names down and what day they're here. I'm so grateful for having them come here to my own home. I'm just having problems with my hips and legs. This morning when I woke up, my left side of my face was numb! I looked in the mirror to see if their were any damage. I was really hoping it was a spider bite, or somthing like that. My home health aide comes tomorror. Yay! :o) We have fun together. It's dh's cousin. She comes on Tuesdays and on Thursdays. I got off track again....I'm trying to catch myself doing that. :o) My nurse this morning took alook at me and said to make a doctors appoinment. But don't worry about now. And to go get and bed and rest! Oh Sure...I can rest?! I don't think so. lol I know what I need...I don't need to be in that stupid bed all the time. What I need is to see my daughter and my babies! :o) They can heal me. lol My son has been coming to town everyday this week and of course he cheers me up too. lol The first night that he came over, I was up watching t.v. with my lights off. All of the sudden, my door s l o w l y crept open and it was him! Whew! LOL He scared the crap out of me! LOL I told him to come on in so he could get cooled down. It's so good to see him doing so much better now too. So at nights, I'll listen for him. :o) He's come all but one. He has asthma and I worry about him when it gets humid and hard to breath. He was a baby when he was diagnosd. Here lately I've been staying up watching those old movies again on TCM. Even the silent ones. Those are my favorites because they had to really make their face and body so believable to get it across to the audiance. Now thats acting. :o) I suppose I'm done talking. S0.....thats, thats then! :o)

~Careful

Good evening/morning to you all. I hope everyone and their families are doind doing well. :o) I had all of this stuff I wanted to write about, then I forgot all of it! gggrrr. Oh well, it might come back to me. Did you even know that my mom still doesn't know what all has happened to me and why I was in the hospital. I just really need to talk about it. /she doesn't even know I had a tia stroke, pnuemonia, bronchitis and black patches filled both lungs. I lost 10 pounds though!! Yay! :o) How? I have no idea! lol My lungs are fillind up again. It also looks as though as my body is swelloning again.

Update from hospital

This is Lisa's daughter Nena using her laptop from the hospital. She had her lung biopsy this morning. So far, doctor hasn't came back with any results. The reason she had to get a lung biopsy is because they found black patches on her lungs. She has been breathing so much better now. She also hasn't had a cigarette since Thursday when she got admitted. YAY! She said she is DONE SMOKING!! :) Kudos for her! She is so thankful for all of your concerns and prayers. She has been using a nebulizer & has breathing treatments every 4 hours/day. Thanks to those treatments, mom is sounding & feeling A LOT better. She is not expecting any cards or gifts. All she wants is all of your prayers. There was definitely an angel watching over her on Thursday. She said once she pressed her button to get the squad to take her to the hospital, they said there was already laterone on their way. That is fate right there! My turn to thank you. :o) I've been in this hospital since Thursday without my computer! I was having withdraws. lol. I was and am having problms typing as well. I do feel so blessed to have my life! I would hhave been died within two weeks. They're really taking great care of me and it takes alot for me to say that about this hospital, they've kept me! :o) I'm going to have to write more at another .

Wine and Water To my friend who enjoys a glass of wine...and those who don't. As Ben Franklin said: In wine there is wisdom, in beer there is freedom, in water there is bacteria. In a number of carefully controlled trials, scientists have demonstrated that if we drink 1 liter of water each day, at the end of the year we would have absorbed more than 1 kilo of Escherichia coli, (E. coli) - bacteria found in feces. In other words, we are consuming 1 kilo of poop. However, we do NOT run that risk when drinking wine & beer (or tequila, rum, whisky or other liquor), because alcohol has to go through a purification process of boiling, filtering and/or fermenting. Remember: Water = Poop, Wine = Health. Therefore, it's better to drink wine and talk stupid, than to drink water and be full of shit. There is no need to thank me for this valuable information: I'm doing it as a public service.

Good evening. I do pray that everyone is doing and and feeling well tonight. Yesterday was a better day. I sure can't have another week like this past one, thats for sure. My son-in-law got layed off for awhile...he doesn' know for how long yet. They of course know they can come here to live until they can be back on my feet. I hate to see all of these people not working, and no money coming in. :o( It was just so nice to have my daughter and my grandsons here. I kind of got used to it. :o) All 3 of them were coming here because they can't be at home at night. They have post truamtic stress. Even the baby at 10 months old. ;( And her husband works 3rd shift. So they come here for the night. I like it. I wish I could take the bad things out of their minds and put in mine. I don't like seeing them like this. I still haven't seen or heard from my son. :o( To me, that just proves the guilt. If he "didn't do it, he would have stayed here and fought with me about it all. He's acting very different, I've never seen him act this way. I'll have to get a picture of my hair. The left side is greying fast. A few days ago, I got more just over night! I'm so worried about my son. I'm going to call him and talk to him. I Wish he'd be able to come over because I don't want to talk to him over the phone with this "situation.' Bear with me please, my memory isn't all that good, so if I repeat something, let me know in the comments section. I would really appreciate that. Ok...Dh and I were in the living room watching a movie. I have a large oxygen tank right next to my chair. I only remember from a certain part of the movie, and then Jim yelling at me to wake up! I guess I must have went unconscious. He put my chair all the way back which is flat like a bed. he got the oxygen and put that on me. Then he was holding me and doing the yelling! He told me that my breathing didn't sound good! Ok...so he can hear it from across the room...dam! He also said he could tell by watching my gown as well. So, he was getting ready to call the Medics to take me to the ER. And thats when I "woke" up. Now thats how I feel during the day. This time I had a witness. I have an appointment on Friday to see my doctor. Dh wants to go with me. He also doesn't want me driving either. Since these things just happens at any time. I asked if he could write down what happened. Which that whil help the doctor,but me as well. I'm going to start "something" to get all of this recorded. I just don't want to go to my doctors and then she wants me to take tests. I'm just too weak and too tired. May God bless everyone of you! Lisa

**********I GOT AN AWARD********** YAY! :o)

I'm so happy! I got an award! :o) Thank you so very much Sugar It's called, "Look How Cool Blog!"So...now I'm suppose to pick 8 people as well. :o) Ok...I do know who I'd like to give this award too, but I don't know all of your addresses yet. :o) I'll do my best. :o) 1. Katie....From (I hope I get this right) Turn the page 2. Gerry...From daughters of the shadow man 3. Connie...For the life of me, I can't think of her blogs name. You send me house mouse! :o) 4. Donna....From _____and a little bit of hockey 5. Kath.....From My Simple ryms 6. MJ.....From ________...She has MS as well. Again, I have a mind block right now. 7. Allison....From...LOL...I'm so sorry...Your Uncle is Phil the thrill! :o) 8. The beautiful Indigo! We all know who she is! I think she has touched eceryones heart. I know she has mine. :o) Ok....Now they have to come and pick it up and chose 8 of their favorite writers. :o) This was so fun! I really don't get awards! :o) Thank you Sugar! :o)

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How is everyone doing today? Me...I won't even go there right now. Yesterday wasn't only Valentine's Day here. :o) It was also dh and I 23 anniversary! WOW! Not being maried, but have been together that long! lol It was also my sister's birthday! Happy belated birthday Michelle! :o) She's the one that is the nurse. It seems like there was something else, but I can't remember. LOL I've never forgot our anniversary before. Dh is the one that remembered! LOL :o) I felt stupid! lol Once again, I'm sick. Throwing up and all of that nasty stuff that goes with it. Ick! Today it just feels like my head is blown up like a balloon and a bit dizzy. I'm trying to figure out how to make my site pretty. I put the background on, and I guess I put the other part on as well. Now that the back ground is done. Oh well...lol....today, nothing makes any sense. lol Dh is cooking dinner, and it smells good. So, I'm going to go now. I really should be in bed now. My nurse told me to when she heard my chest on Thursday. I am having more troubles there then anywhere else. See you tomorrow!

Well, I suppose this might be an update. I finally went to the er because when I woke up yesterday morning and my foot was black and blue. Ick! My daughter was here so she went ahead and took me down the for x-rays. Yep, what I've said was broken is. My right shoulder is still almost to the point of not being aboule to use. The dactor daid that it is very bruised and I really have to take care of it because it will break! Great...I'm a clust by nature! I told them that..lol. :o) I put my arm in a sling I still have and it is makeing it feel alot better. It takes the pressure off. Thought I'd let you all know. :o) Now I'm going back to bed! :o) Lisa