~Starting to worry about my foot...

Good Morning! Hoping that you are all feeling great today! :o) It really looks like it could just open up and rain today. Just hope if it does, that it isn't thunder storms. When it lightenings, it actually goes through me. No kidding. My fingertips have small redish "holes" {for lack of a better word}. I'm just an "all around odd" odd" person! LOL I think I'm going to try and look at my computer today. I hope with the recovey discs I have for it will work. If not, well then it will end up in computer heaven because I don't have the money to get it fixed. From the time before I was diagnosed with type 2 diabeties, on my left heel, has been like "raw meat." I've been putting the medicine on it like the Doctor said to do, and some of it still has black skin, and OMG sore! Last night when I was putting the medicine on, I noticed that I had a "crack" at the very back on my heel and inside was black. Bummer. I do know that it is bad inside first then works its way out to the surface, and then usually thats when you see it. Bummer. So....no matter how much I do for it, and others as well, I know deep down what will happen. But ya' know, if something does happen to it, I'm already prepaired for it. Right now in my life, I don't sweat the small stuff anymore. I have a mother that the last I seen her when I was in the hospital and she came in pissed at me for "not calling" her! I called all of the phone numbers I had for the woman...Geesh! And now, I don't see her because she "doesn't have the time" for me. LOL I mean...OMG...whats wrong with this lady!? LOL I've always been the "peace keeper" in the family, but I can't do that anymore, I need to look out for me for a change, not raise my mom and my youngest sister. Good grief. So......right now in my life, that is small potatoes. My daughter is just in aww of how my mother has treated her kids. She has two and another on the way! YAY! I can't help that, everytime I talk about the new arrival I just have to say that because of my excitment! :o) As we all know, YEP, I'm going to spoil this one too! lol :o) I just don't think I can have enough grandbabys. I'm addicted! lol :o) This little story is just too funny too me :) Andrew is now 1 and a few months now. LOL You know when your kids are little and you say: I hope you have kids that act just like you! Well, it really happened! LOL Andrew is now acting just like my daughter did! I'm not kidding when I say shes saying word for word to what it was that she did! When we were on te phone talking and she was tellng me something that he had done....and I finsed her sentance! ROFL! I think its funny..but if he gets to be too onry for her, I'll have to help her out in some way. She needs to take care of herself as well for the new one! Andrew was being so bad last week that Kayden even was shocked and told him that he was going to get in trouble! He was trying to save his brothers butt! That was nice of him but he didn't heed his warnings because he got into trouble. :o) Oh.....I just have to mention this.....I've gotten on this really cool program that pays for almost everything I need medically! I want to share it with all of you as well. I was called just last week and asked what I could use delivered to me. Well, I told her everything, because now I'm 97% home bound. Bummer. I just started out with diabetic and wound supplies. Within 2 days, it all started to come! I'm going to need a cabinate or something to store all of what I just got in, plus more is on its way. Whew! The company is called Home Care Delivered, Inc. Website: www.homecaredelivered.com Very nice people and very undestanding as well. I do need to go now. Remmber to laugh!

Hello all...hoping that you're feeling great today! :o) It's very beautiful here. Dh got the baby pool out and the slip and slide pretty much most of the water fun for my grandsons. It has been way too hot and humid for me.As soon as I get to the back door, I'm already out of breath! What it feels like is a "smothering" feeling. Ijust hand over the camcorder to someone that'll take it for me. Andrew wasn't in the movies, he was naping.When I can get another tape, then I'll get him! lol I've also been having the same troublams withmy lungs like I was when I was admitted to the hospital. But this time it's my left lung thats giving me a fit. bummer! So that kind of bothers me alot! Remember when I was in the hospital the last time, my doctor wouldn't even touch that lung to clear it out! Because it could kill me. I've been doing my breathing treaments and my daughter was here last night. She said, "Doesn't that put moore moisture in your lungs?" Yes, she's right and I'm going tp stop doing the nebulizer. I wasn't thinking about what that was for. Just too much on my mind I suppose. Dh took me to the ER last week. He was worried about me. I already knew that I had plerisy in my left lung. the ex-en I rayes showed that I had it in both ! :o( I've had {SP} plerisy before. I would get it all the time when I was younger. And boy it hurts so bad in my left lung. I also had another tia bummer#2. I can't even count how many times not to get me all upset and hurt my feelings. And I'm the one thats paying the price for it. The moor of those I whave, the closer a true stroke will happen! gggrrrr! And I don't want to have one of those. not yet. NOT EVER! Well, I've finally got it down on whitch pain is what now. Phew....Kind of took awhile, but I've done it. :o) I'm home bound. All I'm abole to do is to cash my check, with dh's help, go to my with my home health aides help, and then to CVS to fill my scripts, with dh or home health aide. And I'm not driving. So,my bed is where I live. Ick! I have to be in there because of bairconditioner. I havee it set on 60.Out heres temp is set on 71. Well, my son and his girlfriend have broken up. After almost 6 years together, and being i butngaged as well. Hes doing ok right now. She most have riped him to shreds! his self asteem has always been low,but OMG...when he showed up here...I just hugged him and didn't want to let go of him. Hes alot better, but no one knows what happened, he hasn't told anyone. I'w.d like to know because I'm a nosey mom, but also so maybe I can give him some help. He really needs our prayers right now. He's been keeping himself busy by helping around the house for dh. I did ask him for a favor for me...he made this room into a sitting room! YAY! So now when I have company, so now we can sit in here.:o) I need to end, i'm starting to get over heated. God bless you! Lisa

SSDD

Good morning. My last post was cut short because we lost power. I think threre might have been an accident somwhere close. So,I just went to bed early again last night. Theres nothing for me to do. I just run out of things to do. Then all that is left is to just sleep. This entry is really the ending of yesterdays.On my left heal, the bed sore, I think they {doctors} found the right medicine because it's starting to heel up. Which is great. I'm still coughing that "that squeecky" tight cough. Its starting up again. Who knows, that one "feeling" could be apart of this as well. when I get in bed, that softball in a sock feeling feels like my lungs and heart are just hanging and swaying, and it hurts. My head nurse didn't come this week. I still don't know what to think of new agansey {SP} I'm going through. I wish I could go back to my old one. I can't believe that they just dropped all of their clients that have wagers, which include the that really have no one else to turn to. That upset me. This is about all for now. I really do hope that all of you are doing and feeling better. :o) Because this stuff is for the birds. :o) lol

~I'M GOING TO BE A NEW GRANDMA AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm just Yelling at the top of my lungs right now! Wooo! My daughter is pregnant again!!! This one will be her last one! !!!!! Her husband wanted another one too, and he was sooooo happy too! YAY! :o) I just had to get on here and boast about it!!! Lisa

hELLO...GOOD AFTERNOON.This is sort of a "touch base" kind of entry. My hands get all cramping. And when my daughter wants to talk to me she texts me. I just end up calling, makes my hands feel better. :o) On Sunday, dh took me out to Wal-Mart. Thats the second time I've been out of this house just this year. 3 if you count the hospital. We spent 2 hours in wal-mart! And he didn't do no growling either. :p I had my list and it took me all that time to find them. I guess you could say it was sort of like a treasure hunt. LOL Oh about my doctors appointment last Friday...I wanted my home health aide to go with me, because it's getting harder for me to talk anymore, she was my voise. She also has a better vocabulary then I do too! LOL I want to make thid short...The burns are 2nd degree burns, my left heal doesn't look good at all, pretty much have to look at it all the time to check on it, not good at all. I'd be very surpised if it does heal. My hands are getting so much worse. This time around it's my right hand thats the worse one. A big OUCHIE! The doctor just about fainted when she seen all of the things that I was trying to discribe to her on the phone so I could get in to see her sooner. And the main thing that made sit down while having her nervoise breakdown, was that I take insulin shots! Now see, I assumed she knew all of this and had my records from the hospital. That appointment went very good. I got all of my scripts, and maybe she'll understand that I'm not messing around when I tell her about something wrong. My son come in today. :o) He had his work cloths to wash and he wanted to take a shower as well. I Ordered take out and it was so nice to visit with him. :o) I really need to go. hands are killing me. gggrrr. Giving hugs to all of you! And My ciggs. are on the back porch. :o) Gods Blessings to all! ~~And this is what makes me happy! Just to dance.

Just a few words. I'm still weak and I don't get on the computer very often at all. Not like me. I've been busy getting used to this new agancy that I'm going with. They're from the hospital. I know, that doesn't make it any better either. :o) I'm just telling myslef that. lol :o) Somebody does come everyday. lol..it's to the point to where I had no idea who was who and for what! So I asked if they could please write their names down and what day they're here. I'm so grateful for having them come here to my own home. I'm just having problems with my hips and legs. This morning when I woke up, my left side of my face was numb! I looked in the mirror to see if their were any damage. I was really hoping it was a spider bite, or somthing like that. My home health aide comes tomorror. Yay! :o) We have fun together. It's dh's cousin. She comes on Tuesdays and on Thursdays. I got off track again....I'm trying to catch myself doing that. :o) My nurse this morning took alook at me and said to make a doctors appoinment. But don't worry about now. And to go get and bed and rest! Oh Sure...I can rest?! I don't think so. lol I know what I need...I don't need to be in that stupid bed all the time. What I need is to see my daughter and my babies! :o) They can heal me. lol My son has been coming to town everyday this week and of course he cheers me up too. lol The first night that he came over, I was up watching t.v. with my lights off. All of the sudden, my door s l o w l y crept open and it was him! Whew! LOL He scared the crap out of me! LOL I told him to come on in so he could get cooled down. It's so good to see him doing so much better now too. So at nights, I'll listen for him. :o) He's come all but one. He has asthma and I worry about him when it gets humid and hard to breath. He was a baby when he was diagnosd. Here lately I've been staying up watching those old movies again on TCM. Even the silent ones. Those are my favorites because they had to really make their face and body so believable to get it across to the audiance. Now thats acting. :o) I suppose I'm done talking. S0.....thats, thats then! :o)

~Careful

Good evening/morning to you all. I hope everyone and their families are doind doing well. :o) I had all of this stuff I wanted to write about, then I forgot all of it! gggrrr. Oh well, it might come back to me. Did you even know that my mom still doesn't know what all has happened to me and why I was in the hospital. I just really need to talk about it. /she doesn't even know I had a tia stroke, pnuemonia, bronchitis and black patches filled both lungs. I lost 10 pounds though!! Yay! :o) How? I have no idea! lol My lungs are fillind up again. It also looks as though as my body is swelloning again.

You just have to see these pictures of my youngest grandson! Too cute. :o) I hope they come out right. lol

Boy I sure hope these pictures turned out. They are just too cute! :o) My youngest grandson just turned the big 1 . :o) I can rememeber when we had Kayden's 1 party. :o) Wow! They're really growing up fast. The party was at the park that we live by. And it was in the building they have. I went for most of it, my chest is still in pain, and Dh brought me back home. Just that little excursion was hard on me. Good grief! Sometimes I feel like I'm at least 100 years old. My new nurse came in this morning to take my vitals. They were pretty good. My sugar was high. I find that to be odd when I haven't done anything wrong. Oh well. :o) Will, I'm starting to get dizzy again. That needs to stop as well. Bye, Lisa

Wine and Water To my friend who enjoys a glass of wine...and those who don't. As Ben Franklin said: In wine there is wisdom, in beer there is freedom, in water there is bacteria. In a number of carefully controlled trials, scientists have demonstrated that if we drink 1 liter of water each day, at the end of the year we would have absorbed more than 1 kilo of Escherichia coli, (E. coli) - bacteria found in feces. In other words, we are consuming 1 kilo of poop. However, we do NOT run that risk when drinking wine & beer (or tequila, rum, whisky or other liquor), because alcohol has to go through a purification process of boiling, filtering and/or fermenting. Remember: Water = Poop, Wine = Health. Therefore, it's better to drink wine and talk stupid, than to drink water and be full of shit. There is no need to thank me for this valuable information: I'm doing it as a public service.

Good evening. I do pray that everyone is doing and and feeling well tonight. Yesterday was a better day. I sure can't have another week like this past one, thats for sure. My son-in-law got layed off for awhile...he doesn' know for how long yet. They of course know they can come here to live until they can be back on my feet. I hate to see all of these people not working, and no money coming in. :o( It was just so nice to have my daughter and my grandsons here. I kind of got used to it. :o) All 3 of them were coming here because they can't be at home at night. They have post truamtic stress. Even the baby at 10 months old. ;( And her husband works 3rd shift. So they come here for the night. I like it. I wish I could take the bad things out of their minds and put in mine. I don't like seeing them like this. I still haven't seen or heard from my son. :o( To me, that just proves the guilt. If he "didn't do it, he would have stayed here and fought with me about it all. He's acting very different, I've never seen him act this way. I'll have to get a picture of my hair. The left side is greying fast. A few days ago, I got more just over night! I'm so worried about my son. I'm going to call him and talk to him. I Wish he'd be able to come over because I don't want to talk to him over the phone with this "situation.' Bear with me please, my memory isn't all that good, so if I repeat something, let me know in the comments section. I would really appreciate that. Ok...Dh and I were in the living room watching a movie. I have a large oxygen tank right next to my chair. I only remember from a certain part of the movie, and then Jim yelling at me to wake up! I guess I must have went unconscious. He put my chair all the way back which is flat like a bed. he got the oxygen and put that on me. Then he was holding me and doing the yelling! He told me that my breathing didn't sound good! Ok...so he can hear it from across the room...dam! He also said he could tell by watching my gown as well. So, he was getting ready to call the Medics to take me to the ER. And thats when I "woke" up. Now thats how I feel during the day. This time I had a witness. I have an appointment on Friday to see my doctor. Dh wants to go with me. He also doesn't want me driving either. Since these things just happens at any time. I asked if he could write down what happened. Which that whil help the doctor,but me as well. I'm going to start "something" to get all of this recorded. I just don't want to go to my doctors and then she wants me to take tests. I'm just too weak and too tired. May God bless everyone of you! Lisa